This has been a pretty crazy year for me: my debut in Carnegie Hall, a trip to Japan with the Met, a summer gig at Tanglewood, starting a new program at Juilliard, and of course my engagement to Nana! In retrospect, 2011 was awesome--how will 2012 be?
I sometimes look back at my younger self and yearn for the simplicity of a life where you do your best and things just worked out. Study hard, and you got good grades. You were guaranteed a bed and a roof, food was on the table every night, and somehow the car always started up in the morning. If you had some sort of failure, well, there was always next year. (I still vividly recall a "failure" at a youth orchestra audition. I sat tight for the year, practiced hard, and redeemed myself the next year.) The first time I felt that the world had the potential to be harsh was while applying to colleges--but even then, I was applying for 1 of approximately 20,000 openings across a half dozen schools.
Today, I live in New York. I'm still in school, but I'm also doing whatever gigs I can get my hands on: teaching, performing, recording, and more. But every time I visit my family in California, I take a break from doing and thinking about these things. I don't think about rent, I don't have to buy groceries or make dinner, and one of the three family cars is usually available for use (gas included). Here in California, I have time to reflect on the past year, and on the 24 years before that.
My prediction for 2012? It's going to be awesome.
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